I have never felt less motivated to compete.
I am sorry to hear that your feel the same way I do. After last year's nationals not only were scores not revealed, even the places were not revealed. Did I come in 4th or last? Repeated asking yielded nothing. I have hardly thrown a top since. I'm getting riled up emotionally so I'll shut up now.
Last year at nats the tables were turned on me as I freestyled and ended up upset at the judges and their "secret" change of the written rules that we had used for two years. I only found out later on a casual conversation with Mark. However, on their defense, both Mark and Dick were asked on the spot to be judges and were not familiar with those rules. I think it might have made the difference between 4th and 3rd. I hadn't practiced and was not competing to win, but if I had I would have been really upset.
On the other hand, as a judge I am guilty of something comparable: at nats we let Jon pick up a top that went off stage, what was against the rules. We did it because of the public and because we did not think it would change the results. In addition, the "stage" that year was unusually small. But Boot, who had freestyled before him and did not retrieve his favorite top, got upset and he had the right to be.
Being a judge is kind of a no win situation, but somebody has to do it.
I always understood that freestyles are "free". I did the same series of tricks for two years. Nothing was said about them the first year but there certainly seemed to be a lot of comments about them the second year. By the way, 99.9 percent of that discussion was in English.
You showed me your freestyle a few months before worlds and asked for advice. I suggested some regen variations, but I also told you (actually, insisted) that you included a flashy and risky trick like pirouette. You were free not to follow that advice, but you knew my thinking.
All that 99% conversation in English was trying to sooth some hurt feelings from the misinterpretation of the 1% in Spanish.
next year in Marines , we'll do the national spintop contest with a new format:
freestyle+battle+target-throw taiwan style
That's similar to what they do in Colombia: Rayuela (battle) + Calle + Figuras (freestyle)
We'll you trust me to be a judge?